Facing it

Well some of you may know and others don't. I have cancer once again. So how do I feel? Well I look okay except I need a hair cut. I feel like shit. I don't believe thats bad really bad I mean when is cancer good? But for having cancer I know that there is a lot worse out there. Okay facts. I can not feel it that is good and it only 7 cm longer than wide. Cancer is the one thing everyone fears, I am no different. With Cancer size does matter it matters a lot. The bigger it is the is more reason to worry. The type of cancer it is can cause more worry. Mine is not fast growing this good really good news. And that I can not feel it this is even better news. Its just waiting to hear the news. I will be going in for surgery some time after the 19 of this month and I will have to wait to hear more news. I will have a lumpectomy done and this will be followed up with 5 weeks of radiation therapy. When they do a lumpectomy they take out the lump and extra tissue surrrounding the lumb to prevent it from spredding. They will at this time take out two Lymph Nodes to check if they have cancer cells in them. I guess the bad news is The radiation therapy. I have to go out town for this and five weeks away from my support of my friends and family. And the really bad news comes after surgery it the Lymph Nodes have cancer cells then you have more Lymph nodes removed. I am looking forward to being a cancer survivior. Yet another thing that I have learned is that to much information is not a good thing keep simple one step at a time. If you read to much you tend to worry about things that might not yet happen to you. Keeping your mind off the cancer can be hard and this why I have decided to write a blog keeps my head leavel and keeps my friends and family informed how I am doing. I know that I can bet it it just a turn in the road and I will get though it. I just can't wait till it's all over and done with. I will keep up dates with how I am doing . I really like to thank my Doctor who said to me let do a mammeo. At 48 because I was close to 50. It wasn't for him it would been much bigger and a whole lot harder to cure. Thank you Dr Coma.